3 more days to Aidil Fitri.
It will be the first Aidil Fitri where I spend it without my mom.
My siblings are going down to visit her grave, whilst I stay here in Kuala Lumpur pretending that it doesn't affect me. Wow...
I dread to hear the takbir and see others with their families. And people asking me whether I am going to go back to Kota Kinabalu or not.
Yes so I am being a hermit and protecting myself. It's so easy to knock off sad feelings before, now it's hard to not be sad.
WHAT I LIVE BY
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.