Nov 10, 2013


Maybe it's the age.

Maybe I don't feel like putting myself out there anymore to be judged upon.

Maybe what I need is a break from the craziness.  And find something worth dying for.

Man I feel like a war vet..

Have you ever felt that you are 30 but in your mind and body you are 100?

That you feel so warned out and have nothing to live for?

This is my space right now.

Like what is the fucking point?

I wake up..if I had a job to go to I would but I don't. Then there's that sinking feeling of wow if I do get my act together only to be kicked to the curb again then what???

And I am searching for my once confident self who does not need help from anyone but herself.  Not that I condone help but sometimes expecting someone to help you and when they reject you it is so heartbreaking.

Probably all this will get better in time. Part of growing pains.

The only way is through.

Some confronting of demons and soul searching is in order.

I am too awesome to be depressed.

Tally Ho!! 9

Jun 19, 2013


I hate being this way.

I hate the haze.

I wished I could still breathe normally in all this polluted chaos. 

This is really disgusting. I don't think we would be in such a mess if the government had some kind of idea on how to manage our forests properly. 

Sucks ass.

I feel sorry for people who are asthmatic.

Just switched off the tv because I feel even that machine is competing with me to breathe.

Who on earth wants to stay in a/c room forever? 

I feel we are reduced to that. My skin is so dry. 

Yack yack yack.

Where can I go where there isn't so much haze?? 

Any Australian men wanna get married? 

I am yours for the taking.

                                                                Exhibit A

See what I mean???

Well its worst in real life. The camera does not do me justice at all. 


Jun 4, 2013


Lounging around with friends post GE 13. 

Sucks to be in Malaysia where all we do is fight.

Resentment, hate, confusion, enlightenment and hope is our current cocktail of choice. 

Poison has never rang so true.

Where am I supposed to be sitting if Malaysia wasn't so scrooge-y with money. 

Instead am sitting next to the power source. 

Bullshit cheaters.

Hello all by the way.

I am back. 

Hopefully for good.

Jan 20, 2013

Happy New Year 2013

I cannot believe I survived the apocalypse!!!!! Not lol

Been awhile since I posted just been busy lazying around as usual and catching my breath....

My current guilty pleasure is the series I am into the 7th season....

Anyways.... Will think of something worth reading to write....

Take care u lot....

Dec 22, 2012


Been a lot going on lately where chaos is concerned. So many rumors flying around social media that a lot of people are taking it to heart.

One very annoying one is the planetary alignments that will cause weather to shift for days. Like if you're a 4 season climate it will shift to tropical and vice versa.

Not that I mind a White Christmas it would be perfect in a country like Malaysia. I wouldn't have to fly overseas to experience how a White Christmas would be like. Skiing in the manmade lake in Likas, snowboarding to the nearest market instead of driving and the best part would be the Malaysian snowmen I could make. I can imagine one with a pipe and sarong with a cute little songkok (its Malaysian headgear usually worn to attend gatherings or worn to the mosques.) on its head.

But oh my goodness! if it's not on the news it is mental abuse. Quit believing in rumors. If I wanted trash I would just watch the BBC. LOL No offense guys.

I know that we can never be too safe. I heard that a lot of people were stocking up for the so called Doomsday loading up on food and what nots. I seriously feel that it's just part of a conspiracy by shop owners'r'us to get people to spend more money.

My bff Pam was saying it's like Y2K  all over again. What I remember of Y2K doomsday was that everything that's computerized will malfunction and cause people to die because of the switch from 1999 to the year 2000. My sister Masley was on a plane with her family on Y2K eve. We were a bit worried but thank goodness for that. They all arrived in one piece.



Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.