Jun 30, 2010

Gloomy and Moody

I haven't written on this blog for the longest time. I think I suddenly decided to damn my writing because of my break up.

I'm starting to think that truly love doesn't exist. How can things in the movies happen the way it is in real life? Obviously those emotions were evoked from those damn pay checks that those celebrities get.

My life in ruins. Everything isn't working for me as of now and thinking positively isn't the first thing that comes to my mind.

Where is this silver lining anyways?!

If somebody took it please give it back.

I do have a little shine in my usual dreary life. My friend Jazzy bought me a basil plant which I decided to call, BASIL (creativity isn't one of my strong points at this point of time)

I shall post his picture(Yes it is a guy plant, since I can't seem to keep a real man)..and he kind looks sickly to me. Oh well. (Note: I will be very depressed if it dies on me)

Okay let me warn you I'm going to go on a random tangent here.

For those who do not know me very well, I've got a thing for tanned men, of the African flavour. But these past couple of days I vowed to keep my mind open to every other race since it sucks being single for 4 months and still be in love with my ex who God knows where and what he's doing right now. Anyways, focus...well my mind was open until Fiona tagged me on Facebook with a hot African American dude dancing in it. *Sighs* Our best friends knows us best.

I love you Fiona.

I'm going to go now.

Adonis, my piano is a calling. Hopefully this is not a one off thing.

It's good to be back.


Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.