Something to think about?

I feel like vomitting when I see that I haven't updated my blog for exactly a month I think lol

Well, I have no excuse except for lack of discipline and been busy doing nothing..

There has been a lot of things that have happened in my life as of recently. I don't know where to begin. One thing that I have learnt though is the power of creation. Yes really the power of creation. I don't mean to sound like all hoo-haa with all that ALL SUPREME BEING JAZZ but it's just as we as human being have the capacity to create.

Here is an example of how one can create. When you have a bad mood, and you come into contact with another person, let's say your boyfriend. :P (Humour me)

Well you carry with you the irritance and annoyance therefore your communication becomes such, of irritance and annoyance and the man starts to think what the hell is wrong with you or maybe he thinks he bought you the wrong type of tampon or pain killer to ease your PMS needs. (Not that you were having it at the time but you know, those mood swings that resemble PMSing)

He then becomes irritated and annoyed at how you are behaving therefore resulting in a ripple effect. Pity the soul who gets the end of that bargain but there you have it, creating irritance and annoyance.

On the flipside if all you had in your thoughts were love and abundance and joy, guess what happens? You do the math :) Not only you get plenty of hugs and shows of affection you also get
whatever it is you get :) but I promise you it would be of loving and tenderness of gesture :)

Make sure though that some of that tenderness and love come to you first before you go out in the open showering the world with love. Start from you first.

So I ask you now, what are you committed to create for yourself? What is it that you want to put in to your life and the people around you? :)

It's entirely up to you.

Why not politics?

I've been asked why is it that I don't just venture into politics? I have the family background, I am somewhat outspoken (half the time I don't remember what I said anyways.. :P) and the fact that I have a lot of visionary ideas marks me as a person who is destined for a political spot.

With full truth and honesty I don't see this as my purpose in life. Yes I would love to be influential but in the medium of my choosing and that would be writing. That has always been a passion. I never doubted for a minute that I could one day write that life transforming book and send people to greater heights when achieving their hopes and dreams. It would be colourful I can imagine.

But coming back to politics, I have committed to live an ethical life, stick to my principles of honour and justice and not be subjugated to corruption. In the grand scheme of life I prefer a life that is harmonious and peaceful. There are more important things to think about than having to think about having tea with the Prime Minister. I'm not trying to downplay the importance of politics. I'd rather be in direct contribution than someone who is at the podium talking a lot of malarky and not living up to my promise as a leader.

There are more than one ways to demonstrate one's leadership capabilities and I know that for a fact because I am in the presence of greatness and honoured and privilleged to be a part of their journey for 80+ days more.

Now that's something worth being a leader for.

A clean house=Clear mind and everything else will fall into place.

I never understood it at first. Why does my surroundings have to be clean in order for me to have a clear mind?

What motivated me to stop and take a look? Because I am on an important mission to have people grow in my space. Not in ways of inches sideways or upwards, but internal growth. Whether it would be rigor, confidence, courage etc, IF IT'S TO BE IT'S UP TO ME. And I've got 3 months to accomplish it.

Then I took an introspective look to myself. I noticed what was getting in the way was clean surroundings. I've gotten into the habit of hoarding stuff over the years and yea it doesn't work for me. This habit resulted in me getting a cluttered mind. In order for me and others WIN in life I had to get cleaning and now am cleaning! LOL... (Family and friends would be so proud of me lol)

When I started cleaning I realized that my brain was starting to work as well. A lot of unwanted information was in the background and the needed ones were in the foreground. It is uncomfortable and I find it hard to breathe. It's a good start!! When they say you can't teach an old dog new tricks, to me that's just CRAP. Habits can be broken if you are committed to breaking out of it. It's just replacing the habit with a new one. Whatever your bad habit may be, just get committed to why you want to break out of it in the first place. Get plugged in and excited about practicing a new one.

If practiced rigorously for the next 45 days in your life (which scientifically is proven on how long it takes to have the new habit stick) it will be a new productive habit for you.

Good luck and have fun doing it!!

song writer's block

I'm struggling to write the chorus to my song that I started working on 2 weeks back, then I thought, well why not find a title first? The problem there's no word strong enough to carry it (yea obsessive perfection I know) and well the inspiration was way back when I was on my "cooling off period". Now that things are hot again in the love department the feelings are stuck in the chest.

Not that I am complaining!!! I'll figure out some other alternative on getting inspired. Some parts of my soul is in this song! I just can't Webster-Merriem the title into existence. I wish I could. Ya Allah send me a muse. INSPIRE ME!!

I've been tossing and turning, the song is due by 2nd February, it's still in shambles and I've been at it ever since I said I was going to settle it. Don't get me wrong I have the passion and the drive but why is it taking such a long time to come to me?!

I think I just need some zen peace. Those kind of meditative states can really do wonders for a person. Especially those people like MOI who's in the *I'M STUCK* category. I was telling my friend it's like an orgasm that has been waiting for neons to come out. I know it sounds crude, but it's here in my heart now waiting to explode to a song. I can seriously feel it. Or I could just be delusional and that actually it's just gas.

Whstever it is, I need some kind of break.. a mental break. My poor mind is going through so much and wasting so much brain fuel it's not even funny. I guess it's the focus that I lack, I'm like this person who always jumps to the next best thing and end up not finishing what I started.

Not that I don't intend to finish it, I just am lacking the know how. Probably I need to hang around finishers to get the idea of a finished product. I need support and people to kick my butt when I'm like this. lol

Self-discipline would also work in times like this.

Do the declared.

Help........... *cries*

URGENCY in LOVE

I googled love jones because I was thinking about him. Suddenly this quote popped out from the actual movie LOVE JONES (1997):-

Nina Mosley: You always want what you want when you want it. Why is everything so urgent with you?
Darius Lovehall: Let me tell you somethin'. This here, right now, at this very moment, is all that matters to me. I love you. That's urgent like a motherfu*ker.

Another conversation that reminded me of urgency was the one I had with Buq, a good friend of mine. The way he puts it, it made me see urgency like a trigger that you need to constantly pull. Whatever pops into your head/gut, just do it. Because a past moment will never return, so is an idea, what I discovered by urgency I get full satisfaction of saying what I need to say and build up confidence as I go along.

I address my issues on the spot and I don't let my brain store any negative memories, I notice supressed angst or disatisfaction is like a poison that could contribute in sabotaging my relationships and in the end sabotage myself. Essentially, I use my time to the fullest and constantly be present. I am a person of action..

I'm always talking about not wasting energy, water, money and what nots, but what about time? isn't that a valuable commodity as well?

So that's what I do always now. Tell the people I love I love them everyday, coz I don't know when I get the chance to say it again and it's just not by saying I love you but by making a difrerence in their lives as well. When I think about it, communicating honestly and truthfully is the only way to go. No second guessing, hesitating, and of course being urgent about it...

Coz it is, urgent like a motherf*cker :)

Remember you don't have tomorrow..You only have today...this moment. What are you waiting for?